We’ve updated our Terms of Use to reflect our new entity name and address. You can review the changes here.
We’ve updated our Terms of Use. You can review the changes here.

between lovers ep

by opulent ardor

/
  • Streaming + Download

    Includes high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more. Paying supporters also get unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app.
    Purchasable with gift card

      name your price

     

1.
these things always take forever to suss out and i don't know how much longer i'll be around
2.
all of our dreams they die so hard no hope in letting go after they're gone we carry on still weighed down by their ghosts listless and numb still staggering working hard to forget making the best of what we own swallowing grief and regret when i was sixteen i dreamt the perfect love just enough to get me through thirteen years on i'm not so sure that dream will ever come true how long must i keep holding out for you? most days it's hard enough just to say, "it will all be alright" ten years of loss ten years of drink no grace and no respite hard hearted vacant and worn ever changing mental state but if you promise you're coming soon i will do my best to wait when i was sixteen i dreamt the perfect love just enough to get me through but thirteen years on and i'm not so sure that dream will ever come true oh i swear that i will keep hanging on for you your pallid white skin and the warm lamp light your pine pitch hair on some balmy night the empty hours of the wasted days your mother's wet hands and her fading grace still making eyes from across the room a child's knee an open wound my fucked up head your cool nurse's touch my tired sullen ways you say i think too much oh i am waiting here for you the grocery stores lit by fluorescent lights your disarming smile wins the little fights i hold onto my grief will never let it go i need to feel awful so i can be whole oh i am waiting here for you making bright white love fucking endlessly your fragile cries hang like smoke in the trees i hardly talk but you always know what i mean when i'm driving silent that's my father in me oh i am waiting here for you i keep my mistakes on my nightstand grip them everyday like stones in my hand i'd carve your name right into my face your fervid body hung with lace oh i am waiting here for you i could float here forever just us in this space no doubt and no worry held buoyant in grace your voice is a cello carrying me to bed a calm and cool drone stops all the fuck in my head oh i am waiting here for you the cool air from the waves you brush the hair from your eye the peak of my existence after this i can die our daughter's feet my mother's care an open casket funeral read as a deity's dare oh i am waiting here for you there is no way this won't end in pain and i know that when it does i will be to blame i will be to blame
3.
lullabye 03:39
oh how great it is to see you and to feel that sea between us oh i know everything about you yet we don't ever speak i wish there was another way but i'm not about to bridge that gap i know it wouldn't be right bet you would take it the wrong way so i guess it should just stay like this maybe someday we will talk again but til then i will fuck off i don't expect any grace from you just know i'll never blame you and i will always have love for you you never deserved to endure all the things i did and said to you there's nothing i could say and nothing i could do that would undo the pain while honoring the truth with the perspective i have gained i still don't have a clue why you stuck it out so long given how i treated you i won't ask you to forget i won't ask you to forgive i'll remain unabsolved as long as we both shall live doesn't make me a martyr doesn't make me a fucking saint i'm sorry for all i've done and i've done hard work to change oh but i i still miss you and i dream about you all the time and i just don't know what to do i know it has to stay like this and i don't want you back so here i'll stand a rehabilitated criminal heartbroken cheerleader
4.
5.
fantasy 05:07
it always seems to rain down on you (let it rain on you) a life of cruelty and unjust abuse (unjust abuse) well, i've prepared this safe space for you (a safe space for you) and when you hurt, i can feel it too (i can feel it too) it doesn't matter what you do, i will never abandon you i can harbor no contempt for you (no contempt for you) i want to make love to all of you (to all of you) i see my children safe and sound in you (safe and sound in you) i want to make all of your dreams come true (all your dreams come true) it doesn't matter what you do, i will never abandon you

credits

released March 26, 2018

thank you to dan, erin, matt
and all of my past and future lovers
all songs written, performed and recorded by ben weissenborn
dan fisher played guitar on "sixteen" and "fantasy"
erin lenau sang on "sixteen"
"lullabye" based on sample of "lullaby" by george winston
"fantasy" contains sample of "quiet beauty" by dancing fantasy
mastered by matt ten clay at amber lit audio
written and recorded september 2017 through march 2018

license

all rights reserved

tags

about

opulent ardor Grand Rapids, Michigan

Empty salons. Corridors. Salons. Doors. Doors. Salons. Empty chairs, deep armchairs, thick carpets. Heavy hangings. Stairs, steps. Steps, one after the other. Glass objects, objects still intact, empty glasses. A glass that falls, three, two, one, zero. Glass partition, letters. ... more

contact / help

Contact opulent ardor

Streaming and
Download help

Redeem code

Report this album or account

If you like opulent ardor, you may also like: